Last moments

Time, is passing by...
really fast...
It's feels faster than it have ever been...

Could it be,
because I'm leaving this world that I've been so used to?
The world where I was born...
The world where I have all my friends beside me...
The world where sometimes everything just too perfect for me...

I confuse myself...
so much that I think I'm gonna blow my brains out...
Do I want to stay here if I was given the chance...
or will I still go...
To a place where I'm gonna start all over...
Be the newbie, the new girl who came from the outside...

This place holds so much memories..
Do I really have the hearts to leave it all behind?

I hope I'm not gonna change...
I hope the people there are better...
I hope my friends won't forget me...
and I really hope, I'm not gonna get side-track from my dreams...

My dream,
that's the reason they moved me there...
They say they wanted me to focus...
Sacrifice 2 years of my life time there...
No internet, no TV, no shopping,
Heck, I even think the time I got with my cell is limited too...
But I believe I can do it...

Two years are not really long...
even in the holidays I'm still coming back to visit...
After that, I'm sure we will all meet again...
Someday, somewhere;
Sometime, someplace...
I believe on destiny but I don't rely on fate...
and our meeting is destine to be true...
I'm sure of it...


To my true friend,
I want you to be happy...
Never cry just because you wanted to..
Our tears are not cheap...
They're precious...
It doesn't mean that if we are girls, we can always cry...
I know there're somethings that we still kept to ourselves..
I'm sorry for that...
but promise me...
that you're gonna change all your bad-points...
Don't be stubborn and too sure of yourself..
We are humans, we always make mistakes...
Be true to your family, your friends, yourself and me...
I'm going, to a place farther than here...
We can't be sure if we'll meet again...
People change...
but for you, I'll make an exception~
I'll be the girl you can bully, protect, and talk to...
just make sure you won't kill me eh~
and I'll try not to bite your head off ;)

To someone I look as an older sister,
You know who you are~XD
You are the one and only,
the girl who practically know the story of my life...
I look up to you so much that I wonder why~
We could talk, joke and laugh at practically EVERYTHING...
you and I both know, that we can't leave each other's life ;)
you better keep your paws off the animal or the chubby kids~
I know that you know that can never happens~~
You're beautiful just the way you are...
Don't downgrade yourself just because you don't feel confident towards certain someone..
and when I'm back, we are soooo going boy-hunting..
BTW, I'm so gonna annoy you to death if you forget me =)

To my crazy friends,
We spent this year being a total lunatic...
making other's life miserable...
going out together till the sunsets...
studying together for the dreaded tests...
falling and getting up together..
and all the heart breaks where we support each other...
you guys are the craziest friends I have ever had,
and I don't want anyone else^^
Just you guys wait for me..
I'm gonna be back and make you guys' life miserable..
as miserable as it can always be...

To dearest St.John,
Never give up no matter who or what you guys face...
Don't stab a member behind their back...
If you got something to say,
just say it to her face...
but don't fight!
Don't be the reason why St.John crumbles down...
We all know, no matter how much we said we "hate" St.john...
We still love it to death..
Coz if we don't...
We won't be where we are now...=)
Please...
We are one big family ^~^
We lose together~
We win together~
We "sampat" together ;)
no matter what happens,
We're a team, a family...
All for one, and One for all...=)
I'll be back and kill you guys if something happens to St.John..

To those who I can't return their feelings,
I'm sorry and thank you...
That's what I can say...
I'm sure you would do anything and everything just to have my heart..
but sadly, someone stole it away...
I will always be the heartless girl who break your heart...
and the only song I can sing to you is Break Your Heart...
I hope the next time we meet again...
you've already move on to someone better...
Someone who can return your feelings...

To him,
I finally admit that I like you...
the fact that someone know about this before I do just made me deny it...
I finally, finally admit...
But I don't think I'm good enough for you...
I want you to be happy,
Don't stress yourself too much,
I'm gonna miss you very very much...
and I hope that this crush of mine fades away as swift as it came...

To me,
You're what I called an "Iron Woman"
Never give up no matter how hard it is...
Never cry no matter how many times your heart broke....
Never say sorry just because you feel guilty even if it's not your fault...
This is LIFE...
All you can do is deal with it and hope that it's gonna pass by quickly...
A person can't live on their own...
they need someone...
Being alone just don't cut it...
And no matter how fake it is...
Just Smile...
you can never know how much your smile can do to the people around you...

For now,
I give my goodbyes..
to my true friend that I'll always have her back,
to my dear old sister that I always wanted,
to my crazy friends that I cherish with whole my life,
to the person who I fell bad for that I can only wish for you to move on,
and to the guy I like for I want your happiness to be in your grasp...
Goodbye for now and be happy for me...^~^

I love you all...