Un-ordinary Girl

I'm weird but I'm not

I'm noisy but I'm quiet

I'm lazy but I'm hardworking

I can be considerate,

but sometimes I'm very selfish

I treasure a friend better than a lover...

if you let me choose between money and love...

I rather pick money...

cause I don't believe that true love exist...

making decision is what I hated the most...

I sometimes wonder...

why do I exist?

I even pinched myself to check,

whether I'm real or not...

coz sometimes...

Life felt like a dream...

I don't understand...

what do I really want...?

so I always choose decisions that can bring fortune to me...

I hate it when a person judge me...

but I still listen..

Sometimes I care about what people thought of me..

Sometimes I don't give a shit about it...

I rather die saving a friend,

than die because of my own selfish reason...

I'm afraid of falling in love...

because I'm afraid that I won't be able to climb up again once I fell too deep...

I'm afraid of darkness...

but darkness is what I seek when I wanted peace...

I hate the sunny day,

coz I rather have a rainy day...

I rather listen to the sound of the rain..

than listen to the sound of bird chirping...

They say,

curiosity kills...

but curiosity is like a nature to me...

when I make a mistake...

I don't need a person to point it out to me when I already know...

I answer a question myself when I felt like I'm being ignored...

people often think of me as an idiot...

but I'm smarter than what they give me credit for...

Acting stupid is what I'm great at...

coz somethings are better left unknown...

I hate people who judge a book by its cover...

I hate people who accused each other...

I hate people who fight with their own friend...

I hate blaming other people...

I rather blame myself...

I love money..

I love my family..

I love my friends..

I love my life..

but I don't love love...

coz to me,

It's annoying.

and I don't need it..

I like the me now...

than the me I once were...

I'm anything but ur typical ordinary girl

LOVE. LIFE. LAUGH