Unpredictable

Writing for this might-be-last-time-for-this-year blog...

This morning I went to SMK Mutiara Rini's office..
To finalize the document for my transfer...
Annoyingly still got something needed for that..=.=

Apparently...
I need to write a formal letter from my parents to the school,
that stated they approved of me living with my auntie...
Just when I thought that transferring to other school might not be such a bad idea..
THIS come along=.=

sigh.

Other than that...
I went out with my dear Elly at CS..=)
Got a really great bonding time with her...
And I noticed that we have the same yet still different style..><
Oh, and her sis is cool too XD
One of my few friends that treated a sister's friends her friends too=)

AND tomorrow need to go out with dear May Foo too=.=
this GG is tired and booked daily...
Geez...
No offense but if I didn't transfer next year,
I'm very VERY sure that you guys don't even know that I exist...
=.=

Seriously,
Don't kill me for stating that okay guys..=.=

Just feeling sad + emo suddenly...=(

sad+ing

Officially

I am completely nervous right now....

OMG OMG OMG~!

before I said that it probably gonna be January 20th right...?

well, that's wrong...

or possibly right...

but that's not the point~!

Tomorrow I'm going to go to the school...

Yes! tomorrow!

"Why" you ask....

because~~~~

I'm going to get the transfer document...@.@

oh~em~gee~!!

And my mom said that my auntie from Sarawak called today...

She said that the principal of THE school approve of me....

and THAT means....

I'm going there in no time...O_O

Great...!==

but who knows what would happen...

maybe the plan is going to get canceled...

maybe my parents gonna change their mind 'bout this...

maybe I'm going there much earlier than I thought...

MAYBE....I'm going there much later...

yep....WHO KNOWS!!!!

GAH~!

I officially. hate. this...

and nowadays are "Get GG go out with you" day..==

currently finished planning my outing for tomorrow...

Gee...==

who would thought planning a damn outing like this is HARD..==

I said it before and I'll say it again...

I officially. hate. this...

Countdown

I heard they wanna book 20th January's flight...

hmm...less than one month time~

So...I'll begin the countdown^^

24 more days girl....

enjoy as much as possible while you can...

but still...

it didn't stop me from being nervous...

I've never been the newbie...EVER...

well, there's a first for everything~

=)

Internet-deprive

Typing post before I'm going to a camp tomorrow~

And will be back at 23rd..

I hope I'll make new NICE friends there..

also meeting up again with some of the last camp friendsXD

can't wait!

Wish me luck guys~

xoxo

GG

God Bless You

Going Down

Oh no....!
this is terrible!! Ter-Ri-Ble!!!
Miss GG is going down....
Ugh! the headache! The sick voice! and the nose! not to mention the throat!

!@#$%
*censored*
(thiz iz a pg 15 ladies and gentleman)
!@#$%
!@#$%
!@#$%^&
(FYI. no...my laptop is completely fine)

GAH!!!!
I'm Dying!!!

GG's out..~.~

Rage

I don't wanna care anymore...

whatever you wanna do,

you don't need to tell me.

coz I'm tired of trying to understand what the hell that's going through you mind.

and what the hell are you doing what you do..

after all,

I'm dumb enough to even think that you'll understand me.

after I just cried my eyes off,

to get my point across that thick skull of yours..

and after all.

All I'll ever gonna be..

is a brainless little girl..

Falling

Before I fall in love,
I've always grab the edge to save myself from falling too deep..
Coz when that happens,
I know I won't have the strength to climb back up.

love is war.GG

Love

The greatest and worst kind of love I've ever known,
is Unrequited Love...
Cause the person rather have their heart ripped out,
and see the one they love live their "Happily Ever After".
but still love them no matter how much it kills them from inside out.

Nightmare (?)

OMG OMG OMG!!!!
I just have a dream about my pmr result...!
It's horrible...!

I dreamed that I got 5 A's and 2 B's!!!
I hope not...T^T

oh plz oh plz don't....!

*screaming in agony*

Diary of GG [ 24 Nov 2010]

Today's the day of my date with my darling Rae=)

We'll be going to Sutramall~~ woohoo><

I woke up "early" since we booked for 11o'clock at LoudSpeaker

soooooooo tired...(=.=)<>

but we only sang for 3 hours...

ugh! Not enough! O_O

Then off we go window shopping!! ^^

I bought Jodi Picoult's "Nineteen Minutes"

It's a nice story about ......nah~ I'm not telling ya' =D

in the Popular store~

yeah~ it's just opened~

and got myself a student member card=)

hmm....

Oh Yeah!!!!

I got my second time at archery~

AND I'm getting better at it too><

now I'm very sure that I've fallen in love with archery~

Got to thank Yuin Wei, Pig Baobao, and Patrick for that=D

after that,

things just got a lil' boring~

1. There's no cute guy~

2. There's nothing else to do~

3. did I mention there's NO cute boys to look at?????

haiz.....

when you want things to get exciting, it gets boring~

and when you're fine with the way things are, something "exciting" will happen...O_O

geez~==

Well then,

I'm at home now...

with nothing to do...

maybe I'll go grow some mushroom in the corner...

still waiting for my dear grandma come back from China...T^T*granny!!I miss you!!*

isn't life interesting...?

[NOTE TO THE SARCASM]

miss gg.

logging out;)

xoxo

BIG Fight

Now everything just don't matter anymore.

I've told you.

I'm numb.

and I don't feel bad.

not even the slightest bit.

Unbelievable.

So much thing can happen in matter of hours.

I'm what you have made.

and I'm not sorry at all.

Coz I'm not suppose to.

but YOU are.

I've finally understood what they meant by "Blowing Up"

Isn't that nice.

Little Miss GG learnt something today.

Thanks to you.

Blind Love

Everything happens for a reason...

that also applies for love...

If you said:

"Loving someone doesn't need a reason"

Then you are blind...

There's always a reason for everything.

GG Photography

Thousand thanks to May Foo and JianKe Khoo for being my model for the day ^^

Un-ordinary Girl

I'm weird but I'm not

I'm noisy but I'm quiet

I'm lazy but I'm hardworking

I can be considerate,

but sometimes I'm very selfish

I treasure a friend better than a lover...

if you let me choose between money and love...

I rather pick money...

cause I don't believe that true love exist...

making decision is what I hated the most...

I sometimes wonder...

why do I exist?

I even pinched myself to check,

whether I'm real or not...

coz sometimes...

Life felt like a dream...

I don't understand...

what do I really want...?

so I always choose decisions that can bring fortune to me...

I hate it when a person judge me...

but I still listen..

Sometimes I care about what people thought of me..

Sometimes I don't give a shit about it...

I rather die saving a friend,

than die because of my own selfish reason...

I'm afraid of falling in love...

because I'm afraid that I won't be able to climb up again once I fell too deep...

I'm afraid of darkness...

but darkness is what I seek when I wanted peace...

I hate the sunny day,

coz I rather have a rainy day...

I rather listen to the sound of the rain..

than listen to the sound of bird chirping...

They say,

curiosity kills...

but curiosity is like a nature to me...

when I make a mistake...

I don't need a person to point it out to me when I already know...

I answer a question myself when I felt like I'm being ignored...

people often think of me as an idiot...

but I'm smarter than what they give me credit for...

Acting stupid is what I'm great at...

coz somethings are better left unknown...

I hate people who judge a book by its cover...

I hate people who accused each other...

I hate people who fight with their own friend...

I hate blaming other people...

I rather blame myself...

I love money..

I love my family..

I love my friends..

I love my life..

but I don't love love...

coz to me,

It's annoying.

and I don't need it..

I like the me now...

than the me I once were...

I'm anything but ur typical ordinary girl

LOVE. LIFE. LAUGH

Freedom

I can't be any happier with how I am right now...

I have every kind of freedom any human would want to have...

A friend of mine had opened my eyes to a whole new world...

Thank you my dear friend, FF.May...

I owe you a LOT...

and another friend, dearest Rae...

had always been there when I needed her help...

and never stop trusting me...

for that, I'll never stop being your true friend...

just like what I had written to you...

I can now be optimistic with most things....

I have freedom to love.

freedom to trust.

freedom to choose.

freedom to dream.

and also,

freedom to live my life the way I wanted to...

nothing can stop me now...

I finally understand who I really am...

this is between me, myself and I...

I will be unstoppable...

coz I am Gloria Guri

LOVE. LIFE. LAUGH

Renewed

All I gotta say is...

I have a renewed blog,

a renewed aim,

a renewed family relationship,

and last but not least,

a renewed point of view...

I'm proud to say that

I'm satisfied with everything

that I currently have...

It feels great!

LOVE. LIFE. LAUGH.

Dream

The only thing...

that separate dreams and reality is that...

dreams are always too good to be true...

but reality is all about 'hit and run'...

you'll never know what hits you....

until you got over it...

I dreamt about you,

I can still remember what I was feeling that time...

I was ecstatic, happy, and every other nice feeling there is out there...

I smiled faintly...

everytime I remember it...

but the point is....

it's just a dream...

I guess no matter what...

I really do miss you...

but you've chosen your own choice...

the choice that you think is the right one...

where you'll leave everything in the past...

the thing...or should I say people...

that made who you are now...

you ungrateful bastard....

is it wrong for me to hope that you'll remember us

when you've become successful in your life?

I'm sorry if I'm being selfish...

I know,

that if I tell you all this...

you'll deny it all...

and also...

in your mind....

there's no way that I'll be missing you...

I'm a tough and stubborn lil' girl...

that's what I am in your eyes...

I guess...

even if you've been with me since my birth...

you'll never know the real me inside...

"tough girls are crybabies inside"

That's a conclusion that I have made...

with my own experiences...

If I said I hate you...

I'll know that I'm only searching for comfort...

so you better live your own life...

take away everything that's left...

so that I can let you go easily~

you bastard of a big brother...

Comfort

It's been a while...

since both of us chat freely...

so much things can happened in a short period of time...

unbelievable...

I never knew I can just spill all my problems to her...

well, without crying anyway...

not to mention her supporting mum...

who's so open minded about practically anything...

and listen to her daughter...

that's not really good though...

listening to the daughter part~

haha=]

sometimes I wish that my mum would be more sociable...

so that they can be friends...

its true that my mum really need a friend now..

more than ever...

even if she got us...

there's only a little that we can do to help her...

after talking with them....

I've thought a lot of things that they have suggested...

in a kind of way...

its quite nice to know that they understood how we felt...

but i do feel that we are in no position of complaining...

when there might be someone else who are facing some more complicated stuff than us...

humans are humans...

they are selfish being...

I'll keep this in mind till some person can come and change it...

that would be one in a million chances..

and I know I would need to wait a long time for that person to come...

That problem aside...

I was wondering...

do I have a sign that read,

"Hate me"

on top of my head??

because hating me is probably the easiest thing to do in the world...

How do I know that?

easy!

It's kinda easy to know if all of your love ones...

treated you like their enemy...

so now..

I would need to train my heart...

so it can be stronger...

able to stand every heartbreaks it might meet in the future...

my future is mine to decide...

you would need to step back and let me be...

no matter how long you took care of me...

how much you love me...

nor if you're my family...

I don't care...

and I'm sorry...

for making you hate me...

Diary of gg [24th July]

so tired..==

u must be wondering why I'm so tired right?

well lets start from the beginning shall we~

it's 24th July><

(well, obviously)

todays the date of the party our class gonna have^^

they're fooling me saying that it's loo loo's b-day...

of course, me, being a naive girl just believe them...

it's been planed out since last 2 weeks

(I think)

during that time...

i did wonder why they didn't ask for my help in organizing these stuff~

and I thought they think that I can't do it...

so I keep quiet~

I even fought with them over what's I'm gonna wear...

I was planning on wearing a simple t-shirt I bought last time I shopped with Qin~

but NO..

(rolling my eyes)

they just have to make me wear something over the top...==

so yesterday i went shopping wif my bro~

both of us bought some outfit for today's event...

when I saw the dress...

I knew that it's the perfect dress~

but my bro didn't approve..==

IN THE END...

i still got the dress><

bla bla bla~

let's get on wif today~

oh yeah...

I slept at Qin's home~

on her request of course...

we woke up early for our tuition class...

a word for that tuition...

"LAME"

yep~

absolutely lame I tell u~

==

both of us just feel like sleeping the whole time the teacher's talking...

its a whole 4 and a half hours...==

imagine it...

(......)

gee~

"fascinating"!!

after that...

my bro said he'll pick us up at 240..

so we went to "Mo Li" cafe to past time~

we also ordered some food...

my bro arrive...

but the food didn't..==

OMG...

how long does it take to make a freaking sandwich???

half an hour?

geez~

on our way there...

My bro got into a race wif one of his friend...

NICE~

nothing much happened...

except that my bro wins the match~

(surprise surprise..==)

when I get out of the car...

I can't really decide if I should bring my bag or not...

so I just stayed on the seat making that (stupid) decision...

once I got out with "no bag" in my mind...

i thought I heard some commotion somewhere...

not to mention someone calling me...

but i ignore it...

coz I thought it was becoz of my outfit...

well...

it's rather revealing for the modest people..

(rolling my eyes)

hello?? it's just an off shoulder...

whats so "revealing" bout that??

once I opened the door of the second floor...

all I hear are whistling and some "woo" from the rooms...

now that's over reacting~

(probably not..my outfit does seen "over")

well...

who cares~

(shrug)

vithdya told me that all of them were looking outside when I came out of the car~

(how come I didn't notice?)

they said I look..

sexy???

weird...

guess they're looking at some random person~

I heard from vithdya...

that Azri said I look sexy..(==/><)

lol...

that's a first~

wanna know what's funnier?

he thought that Qin was my mother...

LMAO!!!

XD

now that's funny~

(for me anyways)

It seem to pass

wif boringness~

them doing their own thing~

nothing much~

the next thing I know..

a waitress was walking in cake in hand...

wif a

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY GG"

on a vanilla piece on the cake...

Of course I was surprise that it was for me~

but yes I'm happy also^^

too much things and so little space...

i guess I should say the celebration in the pizzahut is too....

extreme?

maybe that's the word that's suitable to describe everything...

It was so extreme that the manager came up himself to check on us..

XD

NICE!

after that..

some of us went to K-Box continuing the celebration..

while others go home...

we sang there for 3 whole hours!

XD

they got 2 regular rooms...

1 for malays another for chinese...

malay played till they need the workers to stand outside our room..

in case they need to eliminate us...

but the chinese...

they were like going to a funeral...

a gloomy room...

(scary)

got home near 9 night...

but go back to Qin house wif another long day awaits for us...

==

till next time^^

BET ON IT

The Diary Of a GG [22nd July]

Haiz==
yesterday slept too late...
almost sleep in today..
fortunately..*or unfortunately*
my mom wakes me up using her cell phone..
O_O
I know!!
unbelievable...
sigh...



At school,
as usual...
meet wif my shugs at 3EP1 classsroom..
considering that my class is upstairs..==
its better if we met up downstairs..
i know i know...
I'm blabbering on and on about something stupid again..==
oh yeah...
just when I was drop down in front of the school's gate..
ah fei ask me if I've ask my brother whether if i can borrow some test paper for him...
xixi^^""
honestly...
i forgot bout that~
hope I'll remember bout that next time...



hmm...
i don't think there's other thing that happen after that...
well..
what can u expect from a stupid school?
wif their stupid rules?
geez..==
I wonder if every schools are like ours...
(I don't think so)



in class~
i fell asleep..
awoke again...
and back to my LaLaLand again~
><
and i kinda have suspicions bout my "friends"
they're definitely are hiding something from me...
well who knows?
probably just my imagination~
(or maybe not..Hey, I'm smarter than wat u give me credit for okay?)
other than that...
I thought girls are suppose to be gossipers...==
not boys~
(FYI: they're more sampat than us girls...been there done that~)
and they're definitely are testing my patience..
they're lucky that I at least know how to manage my anger..
not like somebody~
but they know I'm not the type who doesn't hold grudges..
(well...most times..^^"")



woohoo!!
schools out!!
>< walks home..
and wat else??
FACEBOOK FACEBOOK!!
XD



in between of fb+ing..
went tuition...
very, very hard to stay awake...
but i manage!!
*pats myself on the back*
^^


gone home~
facebook again><
got nothing to do though...
without knowing what I've clicked on...
I've opened the albums of my "old times"...
haiz...==
I would be lying if I said I don't miss "them"...
looking at the pics one by one...
my eyes started to sting...
I know I know...
I such a crybaby..*laugh*
=]
but I've vowed...
this miss gg never regret any decisions she made...
whether its bad or good...
she'll never back out...


I wonder...
do they miss me?
sigh...
probably not~



till next time huh^^
I'll try to stay out of trouble...
well...
trouble usually comes to me...
not the other way around...


p/s:
I'll update soon^^
BET ON IT~

Time For Miracles

no matter how high the mountain is...
so many ups and downs...
I always wonder if I can make it to the top...

no matter how deep the sea is...
so deep that there's no light...
I always wonder if I can make it to the surface...

no matter how hard the rain is falling...
so hard that it's hard to hear my heart beating...
I always wonder if the sun will come out from behind the clouds...

and no matter how difficult it is to stop my tears from falling...
I will still wonder..
If one day, one day I'll be manage to control my own emotions...

but too bad...
there are status quo for everything...
the mountains are created so it will be high up touching the sky...
the sea is created so it will be deep enough where the light can't even reach...
the rain is made so it can rain as hard as a person's crying soul...
and my tears...
by far are the only one thing I can release...
without making me suffer so, so much...

Dear God,
don't You think it's time for miracles?
I'm not asking You to make the mountains shorter,
the sea more shallow, nor the rain to be just a drizzle...
No...
that's not what I'm asking...
what I'm asking is just simple...
Give me the strength to climb the mountain...
Give me the breath enough for me to swim to the surface...
Give me a serene heart to watch the rain-fall...
and give me courage...
to accept me and myself...
for being who we really are...

That is exactly the miracles I'm waiting for...

Breaking Free

The situation I'm in now...
is just like a caged bird..
beside the open window..
with the beautiful scenery...

This bird..
is inside a beautiful cage..
every bird would love to be in her place..
inside what they all called
the most beautiful cage ever......
but for this bird...
she would given anything,
anything to get out of this cage...
this life tormenting prison....

everyday..
all she can do is to watch the scenery...
watching the other birds fly freely...
watching the excitement of the outside world...
thinking about how wonderful the world is...
all the freedom that can be obtain...
if she is free from this cage...

It's lovely...
she thought....

It's been like this for a long, long time...
until one day,
she's fed up..
fed up of her masters...
fed up of the treatment...
a treatment for the child...
a brainless child...

she tried everything to break the cage..
the cage that has been keeping her away from her freedom..
all her life...
when she succeeded in it...
her master just came..
in time to stop her from escaping...

She tried to fight back...
and keep flying away....
fly! fly! fly!
she told herself...
but the next thing she know...
there's a pain on one of her wings...
and darkness overcome her...

when she wakes up from her dreamless sleep..
she discovered that she is back to the place she despise the most..
the cage...
she tried to flap her wings...
but it hurt so much..
she realize that one of her wings is broken...
and that it will take plenty of time to heal...
the broken wing is caused by her master's child...
the kid has throw a small rock towards her..
last time when she tried to escape...

she cried and cried and cried...
she refuse to eat some food..
she refuse to even chirp or make some noise...
she is like a statue...

her cage now is filled with thorns...
thousand and thousand of thorns....
her masters thought that this is the way to keep her from escaping...
but what they didn't know..
is that this bird doesn't let her enemies to have a good time of winning..

the next day...
her masters come home...
only to find out that their bird..
is full of cuts and bruises...
even some of the thorns are still stuck to the bird...
despite all that...
the bird look at them with cold eyes...
avoid of any emotions....
it's a really disturbing sight...
you can't help but to sympathize the bird..

A few days later...
there's no more cage beside the window...
the small window that shows the beautiful world outside...
but chirping of birds are always heard...
and plenty of birds always go there....
If you look closely...
you would see the most beautiful bird ever existed..
looking all mighty in its glory...
its the spirit of the caged bird...

if you're sadden by it's death...
you shouldn't..
you should feel happy for it...
because...
it is finally free....
free from the cage...
and finally can enjoy the world's beauty

[gg's♥0727]
you can't control freedom of others...

Time Machine

Time flies...
so quick without being me realizing...
its like a sneak attack, an ambush...
I took a glance at my classmates...
and somehow I feel sad or something..
I don't quite understand it either...

I'm holding myself...
"don't show any tears"
I repeated inside my head...
over and over and over again....
coz I can't show up any sad emotions to them..
or I might stay back...
not keeping the promises I've made to myself...

Time is an illusion...
a cruel yet beautiful illusion...
as ironic as that sounded...
coz without us noticing..
we've become 15 years old...

I blinked...
a thought cross by my mind..
"are these people my classmate?"
somehow...
I can't convince myself...
it seems like juz yesterday I came to this school...
this school called smktmr...
and met them...
being friends wif them...

and now..
its 2010...
3 years have past....
ahh~ 3 beautiful years...
I juz want to freeze the time...
so we can all stay together...
even juz a teeny-weeny-bit-longer...

I'll be gone next year...
following my dream...
towards the future...
towards my career...
as a successful person....
and I'm not even sure...
if we, students of KPs...
will meet again....

but honestly..
I really wish that we can stay here...
together forever....
like when we juz met...
being friends wif each other...
in the building called school...

yep....
TOGETHER FOREVER....

friendship...
started between peoples...
naively smiling to each other...
saying : Hi! Lets be friend...
[gg's♥0727]

dedicated to:
SMKTMR's
2008♥1KP1
2009♥2KP1
2010♥3KP1

A little bit longer

Juz give me some time...
to cool off....
to calm myself...
to let me be me...

A little bit time...
for myself...
for my youth....
for something called "fun"...

a little bit time....
for my sadness...
for my stress...
and for my tears....

let me figure it by myself...
the maize of life....
the riddle of love....
and the line between everything....

let me be....!
I'll cry....
I'll laugh...
I'll run...
and I'll fall....
but I'll still stand strong in the end....

believe me....
for that's the only thing I need...
from my family...
my friends...
my responsibilities...
and from you...

trust me....
coz without trust...
I'm sure....
no one will kno
the real meaning behind
friendship and love...

so juz give me a little bit longer....
and I'm sure...
I'll be fine...

in life...
we must overcome every obstacles..
to reach that one thing...
one thing we yearn for...
the purpose of living....
[gg's♥0727]

tears

Tears...
there they go again~
yes....
there are strength behind tears...
but tats iz for true tears....

its not like everytime u cry...
u'll win...
it'll only be seem like everytime u cry more...
all of it are juz fake....

juz like cheap things...
my adviser said..
cheap things are imitations...
somehow like tears....

if tears can solve everything....
I dont think rain iz needed anymore...
my tears are enough to flood the cities...
but no...
my tears are valuable...
i only cry...
for the things tat's worth it....
my tears are for joy...
not for misery...

maybe..
juz maybe...
tears hav more strength than both of our effort combines....
juz think....
if both of the sides are crying...
which one will u sided wif?
so like i said....
u cant juz judge everything...
or everyone..
wif the tears they cried...

the people...
who never cry when they hav problems to deal wif...
are the most admirable person ever....
coz they kno...

they'll can solve the problem easily...
and wif their own way....
without tears...
its as easy as tat....
only a coward cries for their trouble..
without figuring up a way to solve it...

now...
stop ur tears...
only cry for the things or person tat are worth it...
tat way...
there'll never be fake tears tat exist..
only true tears....

Posibility?

What is the possibilities?

possibilities of missing someone u never met before....
I've been thinking bout this since laz week...
who's the person?
well, I dont kno too....

he juz pop up in my dream....

it started when I started to hav a crush on someone too....
but the weird thing is...
I've never met him...
he is not my crush...
I dont kno his name....
all I kno...
is his handsome face...
those pair of big eyes...
tat charming smile...
and the way he look at me in my dream....

oh how I wish my dream wud never end....
that dream of him....
longed a week....
after I realize tat I'm juz blinded by that crush I hav...
realize tat I juz admire tat person...
and convince myself tat I'm not the best for him...
tat night....
he's gone from my dream...
I've never realize this after a week after....
I keep wishing tat I'll meet him again...
in my next dream....
but it never happens....
I'm so devastated...T.T

is it possible...to miss someone whom u've never met before..?
is this guy....someone I met before I hav this life?
its so confusing...><
argh!!!
when will I'll meet him again???
he better shows up.....
please oh please dont let him go away...
left me here all alone in the darkness....

I've always hated dream....
coz watever happens in dream...
is a total opposite wif life itself....
but I've been looking forward of dreaming....
tat short time of a week.....
I've always hav a smile on my face when I woke up....
even if my mom scolds me...
even if my brother irritates me...
even if my sister being lazy and somehow bothers me....
I dont care....
as long as I get to meet him again...

oh dear....
someones here is being love drunk...==
getting mushy here mushy there...
who else??
tat miss gg of coz...
better kick tat personality away before everyone's around to kick my butt...
haish!
tata...^^

my dream, my wish
[♥gg's sincerely♥]

Dried Tears

Tears?
y are u falling out of my eyes? I'm not allowing it...but u kept falling...the pain...I've never felt this before...I tho the brains controls emotion? but y is it tat my heart is aching? I'm very sure tat i dont hav a heart desease...yes..I'm sure of it...but why?
tats one of the new question tat i've add to my list in only 3 days... it's weird...but i'll hold it in...it seems tat holding in my feelings is all i do these days...
this pain is worst than finding out ur crush already in love wif someone else....or not....coz i'm still an amateur in all these...thx to u...tat i've learned a lot of things...if its not becoz of u...then I wont kno all those things until i'm 20++...thank you...
everyone is experiencing something these days....may all of us will fight through all of this...I am not hopeless..coz there's never been hope inside of me...and I'll keep it tat way...till I find the person who worth it to unlock it all again...

[♥GG's sincerely♥]

Luck?

My luck...

where did it go?
i lost everything...
it's better if its involve only me...
but now...
one by one of my family are suffering...

if its only me...
I can stand strong...
it doesnt matter if i break or not...
but now...
there's other involve...
i juz wanted to shout out
"leave them alone!! its me who u wanted.."

Let me take all those trial... leave them alone...
they got nothing to do wif this...
I'll take it all!
all i wanted from u
is stop involving them into my un-lucky-state...

Please...
I beg of you....
please..

My cries;
listen to them..
[♥GG's sincerely♥]

Mess After Mess

[oohh~x3

u kno u love me

i kno u care

juz shout whenever

and i'll be there......]

Aah~ Justin Bieber's song...^^ I set tat song as my alarm clock yesterday for my Kota Tinggi trip...the Kota Tinggi trip....Why does it rings something in my mind? OHH!!! Its today!!! I woke up so sudden tat I almost hav a heart attack myself...amazing huh?==

After the half-an-hour bath and preparing things...my mom woke up...she ask me to unlock the gate and start up the engine of our dear ABU..><>

Bla bla bla.....skip to the fun part shall we? teoh, the leader teacher selected yeaterday is being...well..teoh..he took my cap and pretends to be Jay Chou...== yeah..i kno...weird....hahaXD...tats my class for u....he also gave me his camera and ask me to take the pictures of the trip...so pooff~ im the photographer..^^ well..I like challenge...and i'm good at it too...being photographer i mean...

At first, im juz taking the pictures of building...when i saw angeline takes pictures of herself and others too...I started taking the environment..^^ the sky, the road, the sign board, the cemetries, the grass, etc... its fun><>

In the middle of photographing session...I came across an emo pengyeow..when he sits on the side-road...it felt like i was looking at the emo pictures...so I started taking pictures of him sitting like tat...the result? UH-MAH-ZING!!!!><>^ about him being emo without knowing the reason....I won't leave it tat way ya kno...^^ so in the road of going back to the bus...i kept annoying him...FYI, I succed at tat tooXD

Bcoz of the sucess of tat picture....our classmate started making poses...its a LOT!! the funny, the emo, the ridiculous, name it you hav it^^ others juz look at us like we're lunatic....well we dont care><....when visiting the Kota Lama....we also took some pictures wif "ang mo"..they're really nice...=] after tat...i dunno who suggest it...they wants to make a vedio of "super junior-sorry"...we didnt kno the dance steps...so I walk out of the dance in the middle part coz I mess up TOTALLY!!><...the others are like...O_O"are they crazy" look.... HAHAHA XD..now they kno the charms of 3 KP 1....xixixi

Tats the good part.....and [pink panther's song] da langx7....the bad parts came...O_O in the middle of one of the photograph session...my phone magically jumps out of my pocket== so sad...juz thinking bout it....*sigh*life's so cruel...*crying in the corner shouting : why! life! why!??T-T*

This IS Life;

MY life...

[♥GG's♥]